two days to go

wah! i cant beleive it, two more days left 'til my first year in college, wah! the next thing we know im an architect na.haha!! (OA sa fast forward) shoooooooot. im STILL praying that ima pass geometry and physics. screw those shit. i really had a HARD time answering our 100+ pts final exam in physics and oh not to mention geom. argh. why do they have to torture me like this?! yes, i reviewed but how come i cant effin answer a thing during the exams. shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. if i fail, goodbye sdt. hello irregular student. major dead to my parents =s =s =s oh well, im planning to quit narin naman in sdt so whatever, im tired with them, them bossing me around ALL the time, i mean who would want to experience that right?! especially when you know its below the belt? sheesh. i SUPER hope their system change, change for the betterment of the group...i hope it will not only be a group but family as well...FAMILY, thats the one missing in the troupe.im not backstabbing it or anything, im just saying what i feel.

we dont have exam today so that means i dint go to school but i think we have training and im not planning to attend cause i have plates pending and besides its exam week for heavens sake. anyway,,,my friend helped me out in my graphics final exam, he helped me wih the perspective..hehe! he is such a life saver, i dont know what will i do without him. thank you pada!! i super owe you big time! ♠

hmmm.whatelse? i have this "problem" with regards to my close friend and "my" guy. argh. typical love triangle i suppose.its sucks you know...it feels so awkward to be happy whenever im with my close friend and "my" guy sms or call me, i know i shouldnt feel awkward cause theres nothin really special between us but sheesh, girl instinct. im happy cause he sms/calls and AGAIN but i can feel the hurt im giving towards my close friend...tsk...and now he's blaming himself because of his whatever reasons...tsktsk...love really can be effin bullshit sometimes...but sometimes its so heaven-ish (hahaha!! you get what i mean,sorry for the imbento term) so there...

i want a doggie. my pet scooby is soo old that he couldnt go up and down the stairs like he used to, its so funny cause whenever he attempts to go upstairs he falls down so we just carry him (even if he weighs more than i do. ) scoobys not even cute anymore, hes not fat like he used to and he hates petting him like before, haha!! hes not active na, he cant even run fast. haha! kaya i want a new pup! a cute fat one. hehe! our mail box is big enough for your gift. ^_^ hehe.

i miss af and their bitchness.argh.it suck cause i was supposed to go at agots last sat but my bro arrived home really late so hindi na ko tumuloy. tsssk. the last time i saw them was during danXing tas i wasnt able to bond with them pa cause i rode with tin going home.

before i end this i just wanna greet my friend paul briones a happy birthday! paul!! may utang ka samin sa sabado!! =)

tahtah!♥ yep

normal day

first of..

belated happy 19th agot dear (mar.18)!
happy 19th birthday inna beybi!
happy 19th also kim ramos!

i love you guys!!! so much. cx


3 tests down. 4 more to go. tsk. its our physics test tomorrow and you know what? i dont understand every single thing of the topics given. shiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. im dead tomorrow. good thing i dont have to study for filipino and humanities, its super less load. BUT i havent finished my plate 3 in design so that means i have to cram my plates AGAIN tomorrow. lets not forget my effin graphics finals, i so hate perspective. as in SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! get what i mean?. crappy drafting. =/ the only major class i love is our visual technique. hihi. its hard but fun at the same time especially when you finish it right away.

anyhoo..after exams, off to big r to meet some of the sb people, xai and kit. ate lunch and then karaoke at timezone. haaaaaaaay. twas fun, (its okay to treat yourself after the sabaw-moment of geom and theology finals.) our finals in theo was so wierd. =s anyway...thats done already so i leave it all to Him. LOrd, i hope i pass geom. please.please.please.

since its inna's bday today, SB prepared a simple card for her, twas nice seeing the whole gang again after 48 years, haha! we met up in my house and then off to inna's to give our simple surprise then after that bebe dropped us off in our place.

i have a very huge problem. help. ='/

happy birthday lurve!

happy 19th birthday to my ka-af agot ordonez!!! i love and miss you big time. cant wait to see and hang out with you dear. see you soon!

A - Age you first believed inlove?
~9,i was inlove with aaron carter! haha
B - Band listening to right now?
~dashboard
C - Car oF ur DreAms
~dami
D - Dad's name?
~boy
E - Easiest person to make u laugh?
~raed!!
F - Food you miss most?
~truffles chocolate
G - Any encounters with ghosts?
~i think
H - Who is in your heart right now?
~WAS in my heart?...**s*
I- Interesting unknown fact about you?
~i dunno
J - just tell me who's the last personwho kissed you.
~mom, kissed her goodnight
K - Kissing with eyes open or closed?
~closed
L - Last time you did fight?
~tagal na
M - Most memorable moment you canthink of in a minute?
~sinabayan niya ko umuwi from training
N - Nicknames?
~yep,pepay,pipay,faye
O - Open Up! What's your most valued possession?
~my heart.wahahahahaha!! tae, ewan ko
P - Place you are right now.
~attic
Q - Quote you heard for the last twominutes?
~nothing
R - Remembered the last time you cried?
~during our design class last monday, si michael kasi e.hehe
S - Song you last sang?
~i miss you
T - Time you woke up?
~7am-ish
U - Use love in a sentence.
~love-what the hell is that?! (bitter?) hahaha
V - Vegetable you hate most?
~uhm...
W - What are you most afraid of?
~singko
X-rated love life?
~???
Y - Year you were born?
~ nineteeneightyseven
Z - Zodiac sign?
~scorpio baby!

***done w/ my scheme.finally,i can sleep.nyt everyone.

pagod na ako. ayokong ng gumawa ng design, fudger. taeng balai datu yan.haha!!! ang dami dami kopang kulang, AS IN. wala pakong schemes, floorplan, elevations, sections, perspectives. t*ena. to think monday na lahat, shiiiiit. =s i need someone who can help me, errrm kasi eh, kapatid ko may ginagawa rin, lalo na dad ko. tssssss. (haha, ako pa may ganang magalit?) im sure wala nanaman akong tulog nito until next week.

asar, hindi ko madownload yung ym ko. nasobrahan ata sa virus scan comp ko lahat ng pwedeng may virus nakablock na, tsktsk. hindi tuloy ako makapag-ym. tsss.

gusto ko sumayaw. yung sayaw talaga tapos walang issues.basta yun. gusto ko sumayaw ng bigay na bigay talaga. gusto ko na uli magchoreo ng sayaw at kumita,,nabubulok na pagkacreative ko sa pagchoreo, tsktsk. kaso bawal kasi eh, daming rules sa sdt...haaaaaay.

i cant find my dashboard cds!!!. =( =( =(

sana maging masaya ako mamayang gabi.hehe.lalang. =p

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whatever comes out my mind...

stop with the emo thing. so effin fed up with it. dont want to be affected anymore, sheesh..please stop entering into my head. i saw your name twice today in espanya and legarda. its not helping. i wanna move on.cant effin figure out why am i like this, i dont even love you nor inlove with you.i just miss you but then im fine with it.argh.anyway...

i was browsing some of my old files here and you know what? i realize how time run so fast. really fast. wanna share some of my precious memories with you guys, atleast these can make me feel better *somehow*

during our sohpnight in valle6. second year hs. haha!!! nene! thats avic, me, reg and ali :)

junior highschool year-our barkada, AF. with our yellow "bumblebee" jackets"

after our junior prom, i had my haircut really short. boycut. argh!!! GUSTO KO ULI!kaso bawal =s

any...tinatamad na uli ako magupload.haha! sorry. any..ima do my plates na, to keep myself busy para di ako malungkot masyado.

cant wait for saturday! weeeeeeeeh!

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nothin really extraodinary happened this day. went to my dermatologist during our break, sheeeesh. i hate my allergy, it really makes me depressed. tsktsk. hmm...design class was fine, we had quiz, we were asked to design the balai datu's main gate.haha! mine was super i dunno..curly? haha. nonsense. hmmm. met with xai at gateway on my way home, bonded for awhile, ate pizza and pasta then went home. i missed her alot.

you know who/what i also miss?
thee AF
SBs
co-senior ballerinas
bullies
DANCING w/o any pressure from other errrr people
SUMMER!!!

i STILL have lots to do in academics. plates, make-up quizzes, reports, thesis.argh!!! i hate it.i hate it.i hate it! just thinking of all those crappy school sh*t makes me wanna die, what more if im gonna do all of those? as what my hs classmates say "lets have mass suicide, NOW" haha! shiiiiiiit.

anyway. i still cant get over him

....

my thoughts.

im confused.
confused in many things. in school. my extra curricular. what i really want in life. my friends and my love life. YES, you read it correctly, lovelife. tsk. it confuses me alot. i mean, lets face it, im at a legal age already, a college student, independent (in a way) and matured(?). so whats my point? i just realized that im so alone, no one to share stories with, share laughters and heartaches, share food, share whatever things you wanna share with and so on.. (aside from friends and family ha) in short, im looking for someone who can make me feel special, someone whom i can share whatever stories i have in mind, someone whom i can take pictures with whenever we have a chance, someone whos ready to listen and give advices to me, someone i can make lambing with, someone i can bully, someone i can go out with blah blah blah... actually, having a boyfriend right now isnt really in my mind (no time for it.i guess.haha), all i want is someone who has time for me, who'll always by my side and can make me feel okay whenever im down. tsk. how i wish there's this someone, how i wish he's still here. but i guess not. sometimes life is so unfair and you just have to deal w/ that 'cause thats how life works. i need someone who's willing to wait for me and at the same time does sweet stuff for me.

moving on, im really having a hard time catching up in school because of the classes that i missed this week due to our concert preparation. im having a second thought of continuing my course, most of the time im asking myself if architecture is really for me...tsk. its so effin hard. so hard. the only thing that keeps me staying is my blockmates. and oh, my family as well.

im also planning to quit in sdt right now. frankly speaking, i cant see any family our there. i have nothing against the troupe or something, its just that im really used to a family atmosphere, no seniority, no divisions, no discrimination. im so fed up with the effin seniority thing, its not helping us. tsk.

i have this friend, i wont mention his name and i really dunno what he's up to. he's really nice and one of the closest to me in school. i really dunno what to do nor react, he's been a joker to me since he makes me laugh all the time but recently, he's been somewhat serious on some of his hirits to me. i dunno. it seems that it has double meaning. i dont want to be a feeler naman but shit. i dunno what to do anymore, i dont want our friendship to be ruined 'cause of falling inlove or something. i dont want to break his heart or anything 'cause he's been a part of me too. its just that i just see him as a friend, super close one and i think its up to there only. tssk. and i must admit, i dont want to lose him.

anyway. im missing someone. i dunno why. betteryet forget him nalang, it seems that nothings gonna happen naman. haaaay.