have you ever realized that when people say you've changed, its just because you stopped living your life their way?

belated happy birthday to my ka-af mafe trinidad and bianca avancena!!! welcome to the afs legal family :) i love you both :)

last sunday was mafe's debut celebration at cvj,its been more than a month since i spent time with af. party was fun but not super. iono. theres something wrong kasi, and i really dont have any idea whats been goin on lately with my barkada...tsk..people change, i knoooow...but it doesnt mean you should forget the things or the rules that the af agreed on during highschool.(if you know what i mean) iono...maybe for some they think im over reacting but what can i do..i only know a little about the problem that af is encountering right now, actually i dont want it to call a problem,so lets just say "misunderstanding." tsssssk. i just hope that this crap will be fixed right away. i dont want my barkada to be like this forever (well, sino bang may gusto right?), i dont want af to fall apart because of boys,(omg...so gradeschool), because of some misunderstanding and petty jealousy. tsssssk. =( anyway...

sleptover at kate's after mafe's party. man. i missed that B, haha! i missed the old days, grabe..so yun..bonding to the max :) pigged out again with her plus dvd marathon plus loads of chikas to exchange with equals memories worth remembering :) ayun,,,only yesterday was i able to watch the movie click. haha! (loser ko ba? haha) ang late. niceeee :)

hmm. i forgot to write here our second audition in sdt last friday, grabe...last minute ako gumawa ng piece ko for jazz/ballet. adlib to the max. seryoso. hmmm...twas a whole day event, form 8:30a to i think around 4pm. 1st audition was folk, group yun then the second audition was the solo part. haaaay. twas soOOOoo tiring, we had training after the audition, ayun...learned new dance, the prayer. nakakalito grabe. hehe. anyhooo..after training, our "mommy", ate dazha called our batch for a meeting, tas yun. she told us that we passed the auditions, apprentices na kami!!! yey! except for king and beth, =( ayusin niyo na yung inc niyo para lahat na tayo apprentice na. hihi :) ayun...all our time and hard work paid of :)

i got my sched for next semester, and i like it way way better than my sched last sem. yipeeee! i dont have sat class tas my tue and thurs sched dont clash with our training. yey! :) the only thing i dont like is that, our design is every monday and i have 5hours of physics every wednesday. =( tae talaga. then we ran out of slots sa pe, and ang available nalang na pwede sa sched ko ay softball..so no choice..softball na, good thing i only have to attend 3 times in pe then exempted na ko. thanks to sdt. haha! :)) so there,,,

uploaded new pics in my multiply. visit it if you want.

loads of kwentos

so whats up? haha! its been awhile since i last made kwento talaga and man, alot of things are happening to me right now, and i mean ALOT =) grabe...ive been really really busy lately, (well forever na ata akong busy) haha! but gets, its sembreak and yet i still go to ust for training. we have this upcoming concert in manaoag next month, were gonna repeat the previous dance concert of salinggawi last february. its a dance showcase, sobrang astig. basta its a must see dance concert, pero yun nga...it'll be in manaoag (ang layo), theres this BIG event i think then they asked us to perform,, theres cheering, then icons (basta gagayahin yung mga artists then and now), jazz and ballet and last but not the least folk. i have six dances so far in that event, and two of those for me were complicated and i theres this part wherein i have to do valdez (i cant effin do backwalk alone, what more if valdez?) tsk. (sobrang nakakastress kaya yung part na yun!) its not as easy how it looks but its beautiful, :) . i just hope that i can get the routines by heart as soon as possible so i can be more relaxed and i can project all the way.

since i have no time to go online and update my blog once in awhile, i just write it in my starbucks planner, )oh! btw...nagsastart na ba yung startbucks maglagay ng sticker para sa 2007 planner? haha. sorry wala kasing starbucks sa espanya eh,,hindi na naman ako nakakagala kasi sobrang busy na. haha! loser) anyway..as i was saying, i just jut down the things that happened to me and stuff like that so that i can keep track with my busy life (feleng!) haha! and while i was browsing it i realized that they were all somehow the same, i mean...its either training, do plates, bond a little with my parish youth ministry friends and so on, this made me realize how i miss my barkada, af. =( especially my bestfriend gel plus kate and agot =c i mean, its just sad because it is only now that i havent been really bonding with them unlike before wherein most of the time were together, playing around, doing nonsense stuff, sharing stories, laughing our hearts out...i mean,,,never did i imagine itll be this hard to do those stuff with them in college, especially in my case, if you know what i mean. my social life is gone, well..not TOTALLY but close to that. oh well...sometimes i really have to sacrifice, and i mean REALLY sacrifice and not to the extent of just giving up already. *sigh*

speakin of my barkada, i missed them to the highest level during "my day", my birthday. seriously...that was the only birthday that i really dint feel (at first), kasi during my gs and hs days, i always look forward to my special day cause thats the time when ill get alot of presents and greetings from my friends (haha!), cake from my barkada tas agawan pa and the ever-so-famous-one-of-a-kind AF's birthday song. dun ko lang absorb na its not easy to be away from your true friends especially when all of you are busy. haaaay. but im happy narin cause they dint forget my birthday. hehe! =p

hmmm. what happened to my birthday??? hmm. its like this, the week of my birthday which is 23-28 (mon-sat) i have training so basically im in ust the whole day, tas the night before my bday after trainin before goin home, i went to tito ojie's comp shop cause i helped boss to fix things up with inna beybi..haha! and when i was about to go home, nelo and keith asked me to wait for them so that i wont go home alone, they were on their way home but went back sa shop just to fetch me (they were there before they went home kasi)...tas when were together already they told me what happened to them and what they did just to get back sa shop, ayun...sobrang EFFORT yung mga pinagagawa nila. haha!!! they did that cause they miss me na raw, and they wanted to cheer me up cause its my birthday and they know im sad. so yun, i told them thats the sweetest thing that happened to me before my birthday :) cheesy amf! haha! pero seriously, they made me smile even for awhile cause like i said, i dont want to celebrate my birthday in fact i dont care if its my birthday the following day, and im sad knowing that i wont be able to spend my birthday with people that i value alot, basta yun. anyhoo...the following day, oct 25, my birthday..i checked out my phone and saw 50+ messages...all of them were birthday greetings, touched ako, sobra tas yung mga teamates ni boss grineet din ako isa2 miske hindi ko sila kilala tas nakasulat lang yung name ng team plus yung jersey# nila, haha!! awww. :) but still...theres still lacking and i cant effin explain the reason why i feel that way. bastabasta. i went to ust early that day cause twas our clearance, ayun..saw some of my blockmates, :) i missed them also, tas they greeted me rin. still theres lacking and i dunno why. anyhooo. around 10am i went to annex na for our training, then lunch break, bought dessert for sdt family tas rehearsed our dances again..i went home past 5pm. still, im sad. :( and i dunno why... i slept early (mga 8pm ata) turned off my phone and charged it. (halatang wala talagang gana sa birthday) then all of a sudden, my brother kept on waking me up cause theres people outside, i even asked bro to tell them im asleep already (haha! kj?) but then dad entered the senario, ayun...i got up in bed and went out, tas ayun...twas keith, nelo and jaico, awww. (mej badtrip pa nga ako nun kasi hindi ko talaga feel magentertain ng kahit sino,,basta yun.. haha!) they got me a present tas yun,,then i told them na ima sleep again cause im tired na talaga so they left na rin agad. (im not bein mean ha, pagod lang talaga ako tas hindi ko pa feel na bday ko),,,so yun...back to sleep...then again, bro was wakin me up and told me to go to the balcony cause there were people outside again ( at mas marami daw), again..i forced myself to get up in bed and checked who were outside, when i got at the balcony, i saw my pym family =) they prepared something for me, a cheer. somehow connected to ust's cheer. haha!! super benta, cause may actions pa and stuff..haha!! then they prepared a banner tas 2 cards :) sweet :) ayun...it made me realized that my birthday is not that bad afterall,,infact it was a blast :) God gave me such wonderful people who care and love me. :) continue with the story... i thought that was the last surprise ima get but i was wrong, after few minutes, i received a text from boss askin me to go out of the house cause he has something for me...wah!!! :)) (ayun, hes car was parked infront of our neighbor's so malay ko ba na siya yun..haha! kala ko nangtrotrip lang na nasa labas siya at may ibibigay) then all of a sudden when i was about to go inside, he went out sa car carryin his simple gifts...awwww ^_^ speechless. haha! ok shut up nako. :) basta to sum it all up. my birthday was oh-so-memorable and enjoy (yung mga last minute surprises) :) hihi.

hmm...oki...im gettin lazy to type already, haha!!! but before that ima share what happened to me today, twas our enrollment, then trainin. ayun, spent time with my blockmates, close ones. tas yun,,,i was super touched cause they got me a birthday presentS, sweeeeeeeet =) its simple lang but its the thought that counts right? hihi. thanks marion dear, tol, cardel and the rest of 1ar9 :) hihi.

ima see and bond with af tom night cause its mafe's debut celeb! yey! i super cant wait.

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three days left before my bday. :( so far, i think this would be my saddest birthday ever. oh well.

auditions for sdt apprentice on the 25th. during my birthday. *sigh*

movie date w/ some of my favorite classmates :)

class @ 7a but arrived around quarter to 8a. haha! magbabagong buhay na nga ako, patapos na ang 1st sem so kailangan ko na wag ma-late. haaaay. hanggang 10a lang class ko today since we dont have graphics (12-4p) kasi under construction yung 8th floor dahil sa typhoon, haha! so ginawa muna namin nila ron and kat yung VT then after nun nagkayayaan na magmall kasama yung mga iba kong blockmates na nakasama rin sa camp. hihihihi. so yun,,, off to gateway :)

super fun!!! was w/ ron, kat, clauds, cielo, kathy, dex, paul, dan and kuya ryan.) all 1-9 pls raise your hand. haha!!) joke lang double loser. ayun, nag timezone muna kami tas bili food then watched DOA (dead or alive), nice movie but hindi siya yung tipong WOW. haha! ang hot ng mga girls, ako si kasumi. (feeling) ang kukulit pa ng mga kasama ko kasi parang camp cali lang, oa yung mga biniling chips. haha!!! =p ang sweet pa nila kasi binilan niya kami ng zesto and sila muna nagpay ng tix ko since iniwan ko money ko sa house ^_^ awwwww. :) i ♥ 1ar9. swear.

after the movie, umuwi na kami nila kathy, kat and cielo then the rest went back to ust for the victory concert. tas nung nasa santolan station na ako, i saw kuya abu, akala ko siya lang yun pala kasama sila bro and kuya lester. hehe! bought bro siomai kasi bday niya. haha! siomai = love =)) right marion? haha. haaay. sabay2x na kami umuwi (malamang) haha! any, dami food dito, oa. bday kasi. tssssk pero for us lang. haha!

ang erm. i cant start my plate kasi gumagawa rin sila kuya. tssssssssk. grabe, ilang araw na sila nagpupuyat for that. kakatakot nag third year. haha! =)) haaaaay, 8 plates pa kailangan ko gawin. 6 sa design at 2 sa graphics. GOODLUCK na lang talaga sa akin. =s oh well.

anyhooo. i saw my good old friend camilluhhh fernandez sa gateway kanina. awwww. i miss that classmate of mine in hs. hihihhi =p

last na..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUYA!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY UPOF!!! I LOVE YOU!! .eeeeeeeeeeeek.hahahha!!! youre so FAT. haha!!

VICTORY IS OURS...go uste :)

CONGRATULATIONS to our bball team for winning season 69th uaap basketball. so proud♥ sang saya grabe :) twas a close fight, and i mean CLOSE thats why you can feel the tension on both teams, ateneo did great also yun nga lang twas not enough to beat ust. hihihihihih ^_^ piiis.

i was super happy cause i was part of ust's halftime, saya! first time to perform in araneta. :) ♥ it. super nakakaenganganyo magperform kasi the thomasian community were all cheering with us. whooo. we, sdt stayed @ gen ad together with the yellow jackets, we were cheering our heartes out throughout the game kaya ang sakit ng throat ko ngayon. haha!! but hey, twas ALL worth it. we left araneta court when all people were out kaya we took plenty of shots pa. hmmmm. twas raining hard when we got outside araneta kaya ang tagal namin nakaalis, haha! anyway...king, erika, paola and i dint go w/ the rest of the SDT people goin back to ust. stayed @ gateway for awhile with some batchmates then lrt2 na, met up w/ dad sa santolan station then off to our place, twas super traffic, as in. then kuya called sabi niya bumabaha daw kasi nagrelease ata ng water from antipolo (labo) haha! so dad and i went to jollibee makro first,ayun..ate dinner there then all of a sudden dumami bigla yung tao, yun pala ang taas na ng water sa road, i guess that was past 9pm na, jollibee dint close its store kasi kawawa naman yung mga tao, (bait)... since i was super tired 'cause of the game and all, i just stayed inside the car and slept the whole time. i dunno w/ my dad, haha!! woke up around past 3 in the morning (still at the car), i thought nagsubside na yung water at pwede ng umuwi but no. there were rescue teams na and redcross, haha! labo. nakikita ko lang from afar, tas jollibee was giving out free hotchoco and coffee, dad brought me hot choco sa car, sweet ng tatay ko, inaalagaan ako. hahaha!! ayun,, around 4a (kanina) dad decided to leave makro na, so yun. pumunta na kami sa village, baha pa rin. at ang oa ng pagkabrown ng tubig ha,,haha!! any... hindi rin kami naka-usad sa baha kasi may part dun na malalim pa rin, eh car lang kami so mahirap na,, marami paring stranded inside the village, nagpark muna kami uli tas natulog uli ako. haha! then i woke up around past 5:30a, still wala pa rin gaanong change, there was still flood sa ibang parts na dadaanan namin, tssssk. and dami ng vihicles (mga bus service etc.) i took some photos pa nga to keep me awake. haha!! so yun,, good thing dumating mom ko and tita chillet na nakapajero so kayang kaya yung flood na dadaanan, sumabay na kami ni dad dun, 7:15am atlast nasa bahay na rin. haaaaaaaaaaaaay. whatanight. sobra, first time na nangyari sa akin yun, =s ang errrr nga e kasi sa area naman namin wala kabaha baha, may isang part lang talaga na baha sa mejo harapan ng village namin kaya nakaka-errr. haha!(yabang) so yun...thats my kwento. buti wala akong class today kasi sobrang hassle siguro pag meron, haha! =p

picture time! (tagal ko ng hindi ito ginagawa, lalang)


rm 408a. (yep,ron,kathy and clauds) the cali campers.haha

outside araneta.erika,me,king (ok, pls dont mind my fresh pimple.errrm >s)

batchmates. steffi, sasha,kaith,erika and beth

the big dome. wala pa masyado tao,

my fellow thomasians. go uste! gogogogo!

wah!! panalo UST!!! (sasha, me, alvin, gari and kaith)

w/ cyrus (ang natira sa 3rd batch audition, haha)

the flood im talkin about. 4ish am to.

umaga na. vacant lot.

parang espanya lang. ahahaha!!

game 3 pics plus the baha experience here -> * http://iamfaye.multiply.com *

*wala

viva santo tomas!!!

ust won over admu yesterday last sat (game 2)!!! yipeee!!! 87-71. beat that blue eagles...hahahah!! joke lang. piiiiis to all my atenista friends. =p basta..i wish both teams goodluck tomorrow later sa 3rd game (pero mas lalo ust syempre) :)

around 3:15pm,i got a message that says we have training @ 5pm..so natuwa naman ako kasi tagal ko na talagang di nagtatraining, haha. ayun, off to ust, super dami tao kasi they were buying tickets for tom's game, ay later na pala yun. haha! casted ako sa halftime, yipeee!=p makakasayaw na ako sa araneta. (sorry mababaw lang ako, simple lang kaligayahan ko sa buhay) wala lang, left ust around past 10pm tas uwi na. :)

anyhoo. hindi dapat ako magpopost kaso nga lang si double loser ang pa-star. hahaha!! o cia cia. ima sign off na, but before that my last few sentence pako,

message to all tomasinos out there: tomorrow is no uniform day, wear anything yellow, lets show our support to our bball team sa game 3.

"i thought love can melt the pain no matter how painful it is... but i was wrong,coz now i know pain can melt the love... no matter how great it is..."

night night. ^_^