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had pinoy test yesterday, migadh..i soooo hate ms B. test was fine but im not so sure of my answers...(pinoy na nga lang babagsak pa ako, hate her to death). anyhooo... arrived past 3p sa house, since i have no test or whatsoever the following day, i then decided to invite my friends to go out and eat isaw. (since ive been craving for it for weeks already) twas so cool cause all of them were game...

so, i met up with xai (my <3) near donna's then we end up walkin to tercel, (jaico's place) migadht...twas so far,,hahah!! so yun, isaw there was okay. after awhile, jai (bebe) came over then nelo (bi). haha! ayun...bonding for awhile then around quarter to 7p, we went to htp to hear mass. (feast of the assumption eh), after that, we decided to drop by at the del mundo's to say hi, then we saw angela tas yun, she invited us to come over at there place kasi my handaan, haha! pards was there too. tas yun, eat and run kami nila xai and nelo. haha! so FUN-ny. anyhooo.. arrived home past 8pm i guess.

today naman, after school,,i went to gateway to meet up with xai and bi. haha! (walang kamatayang bonding), ate merienda then left since we were all tired already. haha! BUT...before we go home nelo and i ate isaw first at BMs. xai didnt eat since she has stomach ache. poor waify. anyhooo...arrived home around 6:30pm.

any,,got my prelim plate in graphics, pasado ako. kala ko hindi cause mali ako sa iaginary lines. hihi! so yun...got to see and compute my grades in graphics, so far so good naman :) hmmmm. i miss husband already. hahahahaha! joke.

ima train tomorrow, more than 1 week rin ako hindi nagtrain, feeling ko wala na naman sa kundisyon katawan ko. tsktsk. oh well..cge, ima go now. ill TRY to review pa sa trig test tom. tsktsk.

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ewan ko lang ha, pero parang may nagugustuhan ako pero ewan ko nga kung gusto talaga. haha! labo. basta yun. haha! wala lang, pagkausap ko siya parang ang saya saya,,hehe! tapos sobrang kakulitan pa. tae! ayoko ng ganito. hindi dapat kasi ganon, ndi pwedeng magustugan/magfall ako sa kanya kasi nga bawal (feeling ko lang talaga bawal)...tas feeling ko maraming magrereact, maraming magugulat, maraming magagalit (?), maraming magtataka. basta malabo talaga.

anyway.
marami ako gusto ikwento kaso nga lang tinatamad ako magtype,,so if ever pag naganahan ako mamaya, magpopost uli ako. haha! nonsense.


anyhooooo...

belated happy seventh monthsary fortress!!! love and miss you all! *huuuuuuuug you tayt*

and

happy feast of the assumption..wah!! miss ko na aa food. hahaha!!

QUIT OR NOT TO QUIT? THAT IS MY QUESTION...

im confused. seriously. im already thinking of quitting in salinggawi dance troupe, after all the hardwork, late and tiring training, sleepless nights and body ache, fun moments with my fellow cheerleaders, more exposure inside and outside ust, learning new techniques and stunts, gaining new friends, staying fit and healthy, strengthening my body and stamina, sdt pride, and just being a member of the official dance troupe in ust, and a whole lot more...i am NOW thinkin of givin those up... yes... givin those up. :( this would be MY BIGGEST SACRIFICE if ever i choose NOT to continue my dancing career as a salinggawi dancer. among the 95+ applicants last june (third batch audition), i was one of the five fortunate applicant who made it, and now, only 2 of us are left. the 3 quitted already. our batch (cheerleaders '06) started from 20+ and now down to 17 (or less). wah!!! mas lalo akong napaisip kung itutuloy ko pa ba talaga ito o hindi.


my course is getting hard already and so is our training in salinggawi. unlike other courses kasi, mine is a whole lot different. i mean, i have whole day classes, then i have to do plateS pa plus scale model plus research, ofcourse kailangan ko talaga ng oras para dun. since the cheering compet (nonstop) is fast approaching, everyday na ang training...usually starts around 4pm and ends around past 9pm. (my class starts at 7a and usually ends at 4p, then after training nakakadating ako ng house mga 11pm, tas most of the time may plate pa na dapat tapusin pero pagod na ako nun) now can you imagine how am i goin to survive? i cant.


yes, i DO love to dance. i DO love to be a part of SDT (its one of my dreams that came true you know, plus its NOT as easy as it looks to be a part of this troupe, sobrang kailangan mo talaga ng determination, tiyaga, skill at sipag para makapasok), i DO want to perform with SDT during uaap, competitions and school performances, i DO want to have a full scholarship cause of gawi but how can i make all of these posibble if my future will be at risk, if i wont be able to pass in my course,,,shiiiit. i never thought it would turn out this way, i never thought it would be this hard to balance my time for studies and gawi. i never thought i will have to make huge sacrifices because of my dream and passion. if only you know what im feeling right now. its as if i wanna burst into tears and just let go of all the things inside my mind and wish that things get easy right away but i know its imposibble. i know its IMPOSSIBLE... ='( naiiyak na ako. sa totoo lang.


its so effin sad rin cause because of our training in gawi my social life is gone. literally speakin, my life is archi then gawi. yun lang, sobrang MINSAN na lang ako nagkakatime with my friends especially my barkada and also my family. totoo nga sabi ng mga batchmates ko sa sdt, "tayo2x na magiging magkakabarkada kasi tayo2x na rin usually magkakasama"...ofcourse for me, iba pa rin pag AF. iba pa rin pag AF Bs. my sisters in crime and lahat na. tas now that most of the Bs will be celebrating their debut, kasama ako sa dance part. syempre conflict sa trainin yung rehearsals nun...so gets...another sacrifice nanaman. ayoko na! sobrang gusto ko sumayaw para sa barkada ko but i cant..i just cant cause of trainin in gawi. shiiiiit talaga. naguiguilty ako... sobra... kaya nga naisip ko na magquit nalang ako para makapunta ako sa rehearsals for debut ng mga barkada ko. grabe talaga,,, naiiyak na ako. I REALLY DUNNO WHAT WILL I DO. please help me. pleaseeeee lang talaga.


napamahal na sa akin ang SDT miske hindi pa ako ganon katagal, kaya nahihirapan rin ako i-let go tas the mere fact na ako lang ang archi na gawi dancer parang ang laking accomplishment na yun but if thats the only way for me to be able to focus more in my studies and to have more time for myself, family and friends then let it be. haaaaaaaaaaaaay. ang hirap talaga,,grabe.


LORD, give me a sign. please. what should i do?.... ='C help.

:)

so happy.

prelims na. goodluck to me.

so sick

went to ust today for my make-up class in VT and also practice for theo, and guess what...i have fever and i cant do anything bout it cause i really have to attend VT class or else ill get failing grade in plate 6 (ata) so yun. i wasnt able to meet up with my blockmates during our "project" discussion cause of VT and when its time to meet up with them, they all left. i wont be able to attend our training in gawi this afternoon cause i am sick and i have to get home right away. wah! effin fever. so not okay. tsk.


i wasnt really feeling well yesterday thats why im not really in a good mood. so im sorry if im sort of masungit or something,,, anywayz... people of the earth!! i have an announcement to make, i THINK i have a crush,,yiheee! his building is same as mine, so usually i see him everywhere, wah! i cant effin explain the feelin whenever i see him, basta i get excited and hyper at the same time. hihi. i sure hope we can be friends sometime, to tell you honestly, yesterday were like a meter away from each other and i think thats the perfect time to introduce him to me but my new found friend just introduce me to his hot team mate, who happened to be my crush's barkada. wah!!! (magkasama na nga yung dalawa kong gusto tapos yung isa na mas gusto ko hindi man lang naipakilala sa akin. taena! nosebleep pako. haha) gosh...im a step closer to my fantasy. meighgahd, then what now? i ended up not meeting him. *sigh*, my friend told me that maybe it wasnt the right time yet to introduce him to me, and when its time sobrang memorable na...hay...i sure hope it will.


we didnt have training last saturday, cause its a rest day for all salinggawi. remember? we ogranized the inter collegiate dance competition (danzage) last thursday. hihi. ayun, we were so tired and busy that week but its worth it. it was really successful. arki won 1st prize in group category and 3rd in pair category. go arki! hihi. hmmm. the event ended around past 11pm, so yun. puyatan talaga.


last saturday and sunday, i was able to spend some quality time with my pym family, waaaaah! i missed them big time. ayun,, i have a new bebe, si jaico. haha! kooolit talaga, anyhooo...ballet class got suspended also last sunday so ang errr 'cause minsan na nga lang ako free sa sunday cause usually we have trainin then suspended. errrm talaga.


whatelse?!... ah basta im really lookin forward to meetin my husband, (that what i call my crush) BWAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!! ang lalan. hahah. bakit ba? af eh. haha. cge..mamayooo. ima rest na.


** af kwento ko sanyo yung bout sa crush ko when we meet or pag online kayo. :) miss you all.